Photography 10

My ten images.

 Edited slighty and to different degrees. 

The first one I used the tone curving option on my samsung. I think it warms the second image and gives it a different look. Brings it alive and gives it life.

Image 2 I've only used the vignette 52%. I felt the image didn't need much else. I'm not sure it adds anything. Maybe actually takes away.

The foxy one wasn't so clear, to make out the detail I used the backlight tool and set the image to 

nostalgia

Aperture f1.7

Exposure time 1/970s

ISO 40

No flash 

Next was a city corner. I wanted to see if turning the image to black and white gave it an aged look?

I do think it works well and brings thoughts of remembrance. It brings out the building and drags it forward. The hiding I feel has importance and style..

Cropping the below image I think helps the flow of the eye, While I only adjusted the colour a little, the cooler image does send it back as an older picture, but overall does not make for a better picture. I think having the time to review I would keep the blue of the bike and nothing else.. I do like the red flowers too! Maybe the green of the shop canopy. 

The next one I've cropped and lightened the light/backlight slighty . In doing so I feel I've lost some of the colour in the sky. The bigger grey clouds! Apart from that fact I think the crop improved the image.

I've flipped the picture in the second image  and just grayscaled to try and fake the clouds as a reflection. The only thing that lets is down is the blur in the hill which is in the water. Maybe some enhanced or blur with help this. Will try this out. I do actually prefer the second image as the clouds look amazing in comparison 

Trying to make the church an older image I decided to play with the effects, I added cookies and cream effect and played with contrast, exposure and brightness on my phone. This is an image I'm on the bench about. Part of me likes the coloured image.. because I know it where my grandmother may have been buried gives me a sense of then rather than Now! And so it makes me question how a personal touch can effect your view.. 

This next image is one of a personal effect, the before and after effect of alcohol.. the idea of being in need of a let go and relaxed hug. The false insecurity one gets from having a couple of glasses of wine to relax and then the regret one feels afterwards knowing it hasn't helped. A memory of the hey all is good until u realise the shit is still there and the path is still the same.. if you look at the second picture, the behind parts shadows etc in the images of the glass and bottle, do you think  it looks like a landscape? Cut up and pieced/ merged together to make a whole different perspective. mind you I've drank the evidence and it was in fact a moment of an actual thought.. can u make out a landscape chopped up and in some ways pieced as one image.. behind the fact it was just a glass and bottle! Again see what u will.. can you trust what you see? 

Memory effect

I guess I'm thinking everyone sees things differently and what one person sees can be something different to what someone else takes from it. A feeling and message a question!.. what makes a nice image.. does it have a hidden meaning and does it actually matter. Would an alcoholic see the same idea or is it just put into your mind like that because I've suggested It? Maybe It is about loss....  loss of control? Loss of question. Loss of enlightenment or is it just a snap of a moment in time ? Who's time and what is the story we each have to share! 

My world my view or it is? Are these even my own images? My views ? 

Tracey Emin (P)

Below are a mix of Tracey Emin mono prints and other works. I've looked at the prints for my printmaking but if truth her works aren't just prints it can be a mood or a dairy a way of communicating her thoughts and feelings. 

I'm thinking I may also do some mono prints for my Painting to a theme topic. I think by making a quick mark on paper it may very well help me with the final with regards to form etc. 

I do like the truth and explosive nature of her work and you do get a great sense of feeling from them. 

Her spelling that sometimes sits next to the drawn image can add another level of interest. Many times her spelling is wrong and this I believe is something that either just happens because of the speed she produces a piece. She also said if she doesn't know the spelling she with just write what she thinks it should look like. 

not sure if this is ink drawing?

I like the simple line and marks she makes which in itself brings and shows her confidence and ability  The one of the women that looks a little bit cubist I think is beautiful but I can't help but feel it was more of a happy accident.

Some for me work better than others and its the meaning and the hidden side of the work that pulls me in. I still don't really enjoy her work but the idea and story behind it for me is of great interest.  I think she was one of the first artists that make me consider the push of showing my true thoughts of my feelings. Expression and a way of pulling out the thoughts in a different manner. I commend her honest approach to her works. For me they seem as sticky as her .........

                                           

Final Environment (e)

Well after months of planning the time has came around for my final. God I wished I had planned better for this moment. My sketch book well doesn't exist and many of the things I've done are logged on this blog. The truth is I haven't really done that much as such but the mental journey I've lived has given me the chance to play out the fears of death and the effect cancer has on everyone, fighting it must be so much harder to comprehend and the truth is I hope I never have to. Hope thats a big word when next to the word cancer.

So what started as a, hell I can't even remember now off hand a hard somewhat surreal thing of how my mind was trying to piece together the fact my aunt had cancer. She nearly died a think twice now and yet somehow she's still here with us. Every day a battle no doubt but she hasn't given up. At the time I was thinking about how fragile the body is and how were just a shell after cancer, but now in truth its a chance to grow and figure out what means the most to that person or family. The fight for life that sadly many lose. For the ones who win everything must change. So I think my final now is more towards the re-birth of a person who is winning the battle.  Casting a new skin, tougher than the last one. Never to be the same again. I have hope in the unknown for the first time in my life, usually we learn to fear the unknown because it formulates images of us being out of control and our natural respond is it to create order. The unknown can be scary. But what if in order to pass thru to the all knowing bigger picture you need to walk the path of fear.  Choice, you can fight it or give up. Giving up is maybe the easy option you'd think! But giving up means acceptance, with this acceptance you take away the fear and without fear comes understanding. That understand I g is a powerful thing. For somebody on deaths door they say they accept death and have no fear right at the end. Having peace or something along those lines. I read the body works behind the scenes of that person to create a pain free and calm mind from what was a troubled battle, then as if by magic they gone. It's the most heartbreaking thing in the world for those left behind. Another one of those life's lessons.  After my dads death my world was thrown into fear, panic attacks, anxiety and numbing existing. Life lesson I failed for many years and its only now with understanding and working out that I can honestly say I'm ok with it all. Its kinda tough shit otherwise and if something happens it happens. Leaving go of a power you can't control frees up so much built up pressure.

I did try and hang the body on chicken wire to show the shape of the body and I liked the pattern of the wire which for me kinda linked to the pattern of cells. Something didn't feel right. The skin I feel is better left on the floor and forgotten about. It's no good or of any use to the person anymore. It doesn't exist in the now and is only a memory.

I think it would be lovely to forgot many different memories,  the extra baggage of life.

The end I guess. I have light m&s for inside the body but now sure to have them or not  I would love the tumours to be pulsing to but never mind. 

Metaphorically correct

Mapping my mind and body as it turns out now. The path I'm living is coming out in my work for all different reasons. Its almost like changing images are evolving with my different thoughts and feelings. I love this idea and while it kinda makes me cringe slightly at the graphic nature of how the work is coming along, its not really about my body it was more me thinking about feminist and my thoughts of how I as a women have been programmed into the world of others ideals and not what I really think or even know! To the men that abused me as a teenager and the fact that it left me silent inside until now. Suppressed in some ways. I've made my body parts big and exaggerated so it's a shock factor idea rather than a ideal characterics of a small soft body. People don't want to be given some things and the idea of taking them fills them with energy and something I'm not sure what. I always wanted to understand why people do things like that to someone. Or to be mean for the sake of It!! Now the truth is I'm glad I don't understand it cos to understand you have to live it. Thankfully thats not me. But the work is more to the me I'm becoming. I'm settled in the fact that changes come about and while the good bad and ugly can effect us all it can be about the bigger picture of growth. 

Nature for me has helped me to understand many of my thoughts. Walking the dog the peace and the ever changing seasons do touch a part of me that is only mine. The Mother Nature from the last painting to a theme is something I enjoying thinking about. I had thought about colours and the meaning behind them. but it truth I think the colour can choose the image.  

I will work on this for some more time and I think I will feel it when its finished. If it changes again then I will let it.

I first added a colour only to get me a better idea of the shadows etc with the intention to paint over.

Colours I'm thinking are yellows and gold against a pearly white.  I think they have energy and the gold power.. kinda a fauvism style.

So that was then and this is now... Friday night.

I like this scratching back.