The mind travels in the cerebral cortex to write a somewhat weird and wonderful picture into how I have came to this point! Gonna be long winded and tedious!! But sometimes you just have to get it out.
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For someone who has feelings of coming to a point in time where the need for more knowledge and understanding is of utmost importance and seems necessity rather than just, - can these theories give me the boost and understanding of why I feel like this. Like this I mean at the crossroad of where I can keep continuing on the paths I know or venture into the unknown....
Truth is while walking the dog I do actually prefer to wander on the off beaten tracks. Rather than sticking to the paths more followed.. I tend to see the animal tracks and wonder where they lead. Without concern for my own well- being I get an excitement and urge to just follow.......
Maybe for many people, they never realise or question the fact that they have out grown they old views and life. Maybe they fine comfort in the moving forward without the need for answers as to how or why. The moving forward and leaving they loved ones behind in the dark because as a group the same need for nurturing and answers doesn't exist. safety in numbers!
Feeling selfish to not be happy with the things I've achieved. Not because I have to but because I want too/need to. God how lucky am I to have the chance to again move forward.... And yet without anything solid..... only trust in the bigger picture! is that what faith was to them years ago?
This is where I began to question the world around me and for me I entered a world of the unknown and somewhat surreal, mumbo jumbo and very advanced work of psychology, biology, homeostasis, psychoanalysis and some more words I cant spell.....
Lets face it I'm not the first person to be out questioning the limits of her herself or her world.... WOMEN and men (thats my new feminist coming out) have for centuries fought for more understanding and the beliefs that something else was out-there for them...
Art history and the bible looking back is full of stories that contradicts the impossible from the possible. The group of people and families following each other into the unknown trusting in one god/person.
Makes me think !!!!
I once heard of a large, influential Northeastern church that hired a “superstar” young pastor. Not long after he arrived, he asked the church board to install a shower in his pastor’s study because he runs on his lunch hour and he wanted to shower before returning to work.
At substantive financial cost, the board granted his wish and installed the new shower – but it also came with a systemic cost. Expanding his office meant that several of the associate pastor’s offices that bordered his got reduced. For his office to get larger, the other pastors’ offices had to get smaller. And here we see the nuances of “open” and “closed.” While the church board was “very open” to accommodating the new pastor, they were simultaneously too “closed” and blind to anticipate how this would predictably affect their other staff who had faithfully served this church long before the new pastor arrived. Several of the staff resigned not long after this decision. Wouldn’t you?
This metaphor can be the same for family members opening up to the one member who wants to branch out themselves for the good of the group... Like how I feel towards my own family.... Many have said "oh so were not good enough anymore"? For me it didn't come into play but for them the bewildered look of how dare you! gave me a sense of wrong.
Return back to your position
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Colour Theory
We all agree that the best way to break certain rules and push the boundaries of art and science forward lies in our knowledge of the basic principles.
Social Conditioning
Freud states "opposition to the herd is as good as separation from it, and is therefore anxiously avoided". Such fear causes the individual members and even leaders of a particular group to go along with the decisions a group based in accordance to its culture. On a micro scale, the individual is conditioned to partake in the social norms of the said group even if they contradict his or her personal moral code.
Systemic Theory
One of the main perspectives of systems theory is viewing an individual or group as its own ecosystem with many moving parts that affect each other.
Principles of systems theory have been applied to the field of psychology to explain the behavioral patterns of groups or individuals...
One of the hardest affirmations of systems theory to understand, embrace and employ is that there are no good guys and no bad guys. Rabbi Friedman once said, “There can be no disease process without a host cell.”
“a window nailed open is as dangerous and useless as one nailed shut.”
So here IS my dilemma thought over family.......Truth is I know the pulling I feel will cancel them out but to live a life less full is hurtful. I'm gonna look into bible story art where this conflict is depicted.
I do hope it all makes sense! to me it is the beginning of nurturing my already active pursuits and mind.
If you have read is far some comments or ideas are most welcome. thats an order!!
